still struggling
I told my group at work that I was leaving. We’ve had the same core of people for quite a while now, and they’re like a bit of family to me. We’ve shared so many things. They’ve been with me when I got married, graduated college, and had a baby. We’ve had parties, eaten a lot of food, and laughed together. They are a large part of why I enjoyed my job so much. And I feel like I’m breaking up with them.
I guess I am.
That saddens me. I couldn’t keep from tearing up as they came by and said they’ll miss me. Even though we all know it’ll be a little while until they find someone. It still hurts. I still feel forced to make a decision I didn’t want to make. I didn’t want to leave.
But here I am. I might have a job through the end of the summer, or so. Who knows?
I know I made the right decision for me, my boy, my family. It doesn’t mean I don’t have a few tiny regrets right now. It’s possible that my writing will take off even more and I won’t look back. I’ve met some terrific people with whom I will stay friends for a long time. And for that, I’m extremely grateful.
listten to your heart and follow it.
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I found you off of orgjunkie.com. I understand the struggle of whether to stay at home or work. I continued to struggle with the question myself until recently the light bulb went on. I feel being at home with my children is just as important a job as any of my working mom friends. I grew up in a home where my mom worked and I can’t tell you how often as I was carted off to the sitter’s for before and after school child care, and I used to think how wonderful it would be to have a parent at home. If you’re able to do it, and make the sacrifices financially, you will reap big rewards! I look at it as, my career will be there when I am ready to go back to it. My kids, on the other hand, grow so fast and are only young once. I don’t want to miss it!
Just keep concentrating on the fact you know you made the right decision. The rest will work itself out.
@g.zhen.nn.ning - it is sometimes tough to listen to your heart when your brain is a worrier.
@monique - i feel i need to be here for him. but we also can’t afford fr me not to work. so i’ll at least be available more readily when working from home.
@liz thanks. i certainly hope so.