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passing on

My phone rang pretty early this morning. The ring tone meant it was one of two people. Usually, it’s my best friend calling. But my caller id said “Mom & Dad” and my heart sped up just a bit. Mom doesn’t risk waking me up unless it’s something important. And that’s usually not good.

My cousin Ray died this morning. I don’t know any details, not even how it happened. He was quite a few years older than I, already an adult by the time I had any memories of him. But I still grew up with him in my life. He was quirky. Funny. He was just always there. And now he’s not. I do believe this is the first of her children that my aunt has lost. She must be beside herself right now. I wish I could go back to be with everyone, even though there’s not really anything I can do.

Dad recently sent me some of Ray’s old home movies. I hadn’t watched them, due to time, but we popped it in the DVD player just after mom’s call. I sat and watched so many of my cousins grow up. I saw my mom and dad when they were newly married, and so cute. And then I caught my breath when my Granny came on screen. I wasn’t expecting to see her or Grandpa. And I started crying. I miss my family. I miss my grandparents, my uncle who died several years ago (almost 10, I think), and all the others who’ve already gone on.

And then I looked down at my son, patiently watching the moving pictures with us. Life goes on in our children.

So tonight, I hold my little boy and my husband a little closer, thankful for every minute together that God graces us with. Hold your family close. Hug your children a little tighter tonight. Happy Love Thursday, everyone.

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