When you’re around me in person, I’m rarely at a loss for words. I can find something to talk about. I don’t mind sitting in silence, either, but I never really feel that I have absolutely nothing to say to someone. That’s because I try to surround myself with interesting people. And when someone is interesting to you, you can always find words, even if it’s just to ask them what they’ve been up to.
But tonight, I’m mostly at a loss to find something new. I keep talking about the same thing over and over, because it really is consuming my life right now. I’m trying to find things to say and do that will help keep my mind off the fact that this kid refuses to show his face. Now, he’s not technically late yet, so there’s plenty of time for him to show. But each night, it gets harder to find a comfortable position for sleep. And each night, little aches, pains, and twinges keep me awake. But it’s the nature of the beast, and it’ll be over soon. I just have to keep reminding myself of that.
Last night, I was absolutely delighted to find that this lovely woman was not only in town, but free for dinner. We had Mexican food and delightful conversation. It was a nice change of pace from sitting at home and waiting for something to happen. Heather, I hope we get to do it again sometime.