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scars

Scars. This one is so much harder than any of the previous ones we’ve done. Do I even have any scars? She said we could do emotional scars. I guess I would have to because I don’t have a lot of physical ones. The one on my ring finger is gone now. I thnk it only shows up on really cold days. That was from hot grease. I have chicken pox scars, but I don’t remember those.

Emotional scars? Well, yes, I guess I do have a few of those as much as I’d like to forget and even though I don’t want to admit it because I should have moved on. I mean, I’ve moved on, but that damn scar tissue is still there.

There’s the worry every time someone is late—that heart-seizing panic that I just can’t seem to get rid of thanks to my ex’s ability to find car accidents.

There’s someone I don’t like. I want to kick her in the ovaries. I want her to feel remorse. I want her to cry, like she made someone close to me do. I want her to pay. I have scarring and unresolved issues because of it. I thought it was over, but apparently it’s still an open wound, not even to the scarring point. I thought I had moved on.

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