Okay, a step away from the free-writing exercises for a minute (although, really, my entire blog is mostly made up of free-writing).
The schedule for next semester came out this week. So I’m busily trying to fit my life around work and classes in anticipation of graduating. If I’m lucky, I’ll get to take all of my classes on Tues/ Thurs. Of course, I would work those days, too, BUT I would only have to adjust my schedule two days instead of four. And really, the day would be no longer than it is now: 6 am to 10 pm. But i would have 3 classes in a row. And I’m not sure there would be time in there to grab something to eat. That may be an issue. But I’ll have to find some way to do it. It’s “only” for 16 weeks. And then I’ll be done.
Wow. I’ll finally be a college graduate. I’ve been working on my degree, off & on, for about 6 years. It’s been a slow process since I work full time. But man, am I more focused on my goals than I was at 18. There’s no screwing around, partying, wasting my money. Iit’s all business. And that helps me worry less about what other students think of me. Because I don’t care. I want to make friends, and I have. But i don’t care if the young ones think I’m weird, or a stick-in-the-mud, or old. It doesn’t matter. What they think won’t hurt me or make me veer from MY goals. Gawd, I wish I’d had this confidence when I was younger! NOW I feel like I have the whole world in front of me, like I can do anything I want and actually feel like I can do it, instead of worrying about my inadequacies.
I’m telling you. Being in my thirties ROCKS my face off.