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east meets southwest

i’m watching iron chef america. i really hope ming tsai beats bobby flay.
flay lost me when he stood on his cutting board during his battle with morimoto on iron chef. a good cook should never do that. he’s obnoxious. i hate that food network has so many shows by him.
i love alton brown, rachel ray, paula deen, giada de laurentiis, ming tsai, ina garten, and even tyler lawrence. but not bobby flay.

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reading is FUNdamental

now our health class is reading about illnesses. specifically heart disease and cancer.
i had to stop reading for a while. as i am reading, i start thinking about all the things that could go wrong, especially with my parents. my dad has had a lot of heart problems over the last few years. a lot of it is congenital – his sisters have had issues, too. but he’s so young and the thought of anything happening to him terrifies me. especially before i can get back there and spend more time with him. his 63rd birthday is coming up. i want him to live a long time. i have so much to learn from him. he has to get to know his eventual grandchildren. we can’t have any for at least a couple of years – j’s gone too much right now.
and then i start to think about my uncle that died of colon cancer. and my grandma, who died last year. and j, who smokes. and me. my chances of ovarian and some other cancers actually INCREASE because i’ve waited until after 30 and haven’t had kids yet. wtf? it’s overwhelming.
it was depressing me to think about all of the things that can cause cancer and heart disease and the myriad of things you should be doing to avoid them. even if exercise and eating healthy are a given, they almost make it sound like something’s gonna get you anyway. i know that’s not the case, but it’s the way it seems right now.
ick. i think i’ll go find something mindless to read/ watch for a while.

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aw, stress out!

trying not to stress. not doing a good job of it.
when i get home, all i want to do is sleep. but i have too much to do, i really shouldn’t just sleep. how will i get two classes done in the fall, homework, housework, everything else, if i only want to sleep?
i have to break this cycle.
i know i’m not working as efficiently as i could be. i need to find ways to make it better – like setting certain times to answer email instead of responding immediately (but people WANT me to respond immediately. sigh) because it takes away momentum from other tasks. i get distracted easily sometimes. and other times i have blinders on and don’t even notice what’s going on around me.
but as more of the day-to-day falls on me, the more i’m going to have find ways to fit it all in.
once again, i haven’t been writing in my journal. i can feel it. others can see it. they see how tired and stressed i am. but this weekend is all mine. so it’s time for me to rejuvenate. what am i going to do? i have no freakin’ idea.
but i think it’s going to involve an ipod.

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shaker

yup, i felt it. earthquakes are always disconcerting to me. i never know if they’re going to grow. will it stop now? will the waves keep coming until the building collapses beneath us?
i think we feel it a bit more on the third floor than we would on the ground. we sway a bit more.
anyway, it never fails to freak me out. especially when i’ve been sleeping.
i’d rather have a tornado warning.

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100 things, redeux

it’s been a year & a half since i wrote my 100 things. it’s woefully outdated, so i thought i’d take another look at it and see what’s changed.

more…

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just one wish

oh, to live in a fragrance-free world.

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give me a break, please

i know you’re worried about the tree dropping branches and hurting someone. i would be, too. but can you give it a gawddamn rest already?
i don’t need to hear about it all fucking morning. geez. i can hear it with my door shut and i’m tired of listening to you bitch about it.
that is all.

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check in

just finished a test on nutrition. i learned a lot. more on that later, though.
crazy busy. job is busy, stressful, confusing, up in the air. oh, and stressful. studying like mad. trying to help two friends with their sites. moving insanely complicated forum software from one server to another – i’m in way over my head – but i’m all he’s got. that’s so sad. and setting up bulletin board for another friend.
and the kid just turned 17 this week. and hubby’s season is starting so he’s going to be gone more (but some trips have been canceled so he’s around tomorrow night – yay!).
open house at state on saturday – gotta go check it out so i know what the hell’s going on when i get there in the fall. will i be a student forever? stay tuned. at this rate, who knows?

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shutterbug

so i’m downtown last weekend. never been to petco park, so i decide to check it out and snap some shots. there’s this cute little thing going on for the kids, with an (easy) easter egg hunt.
i start chatting with this dad while i’m taking some pics and offer to shoot a couple of his adorable little girl. i told him i’m learning my camera, but if they come out okay i’ll e-mail them to him since he forgot his camera.
just as i’m finishing shooting, this guy with a camera sees the little girl, comes barreling inside the little fenced area, shoves the camera in her face and takes about ten rapid shots, flash blaring. he never stopped to ask whose kid it was, if it was okay to take the shots. nothing. then he said i had a nice camera, said the fill flash on it was great, and said it was so easy to use he had his 12 year old using it (the flash).
now, he had seen me snap a couple, and yes, i had forgotten to use the fill flash. while i love photography, i know i’m an amateur and have a lot to learn. this guy managed to barge in where he didn’t belong and insult me all in one fell swoop. and he never asked for permission to shoot a pic of that little girl. what a jerk!

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