panic attack

i can’t find my notebook. the notebook that contains all of my writing for at least the last 6 months. i haven’t used it in at least a couple of weeks, maybe longer. and now i can’t find it. i can’t remember where/ when i last used it. last i remember, it was by the bed. but it’s there 1/2 the time anyway, so who knows?
i write EVERYTHING in that book. writing exercises. freewrites. journaling. doodling. it’s very personal and private to me. and i couldn’t find it last night or this morning. anywhere.
and i am so freaking out right now!