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i’ve been doing so much writing for everyone else that i haven’t taken the time to write for me and it shows. i’ve been close to meltdown mode ™. seriously.
there’s something in me that is compelled to write. i can’t control it. i can’t explain it, even. but i start having wild mood swings and turning into a neurotic, crazy, insecure person that no one in their right mind would want to live with.
and sometimes i don’t realize that i’m not writing like i should until i start getting testy. it’s almost like withdrawals. but for me, it’s more like grounding. it helps me get things off my chest. it helps me deal with things before they pile up. and that’s what has been happening. things pile up, i don’t deal with them before they do, and then i break.
i just have to remember that even when things are traveling at breakneck speed, i still have to stop and decompress. and i do that by writing. that’s my stress relief. without it, well, *shiver* – you don’t want to see the consequences.